THE COWARD IS ASKED A QUESTION IN THE EVENING (OF HIS LIFE)

To P.

Your mother asks

why I am not going

with you,

(if you go,

if)

and what can I say?

The cats,

the price ~3000 € total both ways

and the impending

move, the

knocking down

of these houses -

and I am

tired and terrified

of the future

and the past

with all

their

graves

Pontius Pilate

I already were as a

little kid, forever

washing my hands

and never getting

them clean

and part of

me wants to do

that with you

& all the dreams

we had &

(everybody and

everything else)

not walk away

but letting

you walk

away &

not,

not coming

after you,

but just

staying

here

in autumn

listening

to life

draining

away

& 

away...

26.08.2019