TO MY FATHER, LOST FOR 324 DAYS

Yesterday you would have been 70.

Today it's 138 years from the birth of your grandmother

you never saw; the maternal one -

you didn't see your paternal one either,

neither your paternal grandfather.

Your grandson will never see you,

your grandson 28 days old

on whose face I see you.

We have him, we have

your grand-daughter who asked,

when told of your death,

why couldn't your heart be replaced?

Why couldn't you be brought back,

made good and given back to us.

I ask the same

and I ask myself

why didn't I listen to what you said that night,

why did I sent to your bed

and to your death

with a magnesium pill and a glass of water

when I always, always

looked your symptoms online otherwise.

One day I have to tell your

grand-daughter and grandson of that night.

18.12.2017