sunnuntai 31. tammikuuta 2021

I FACED THE PALE DAY

I faced the pale day unwillingly,
its tired white light in a snowscape
where no dog had walked, had
not laid happily atop a snowbank,
refusing to come in, face spread
in a dog's joyful smile, tolerant
of a human folly to be inside
on a mildly cold day like this.
The master in his carpentry
was as absent as his loyal hound.

These harsh absences announced
the thinning of the world;
the magic of the living presence
replaced by a meter of snow
on three graves. In these graves
we are buried, piece by a piece,
never to be whole again.

I faced the pale day unwillingly,
its tired white light not offering
even ghosts, but absences,
absence which the landscape,
silent, without movement, dead,
seemed to scream silently
in it's every part, calling forth
memories of guilt, piercing
like some frozen lance in
a grim fairy-tale no longer told.

31.01.2021


perjantai 29. tammikuuta 2021

FATHER

1
Your cousin, taken by a gangrene
a month before your own death,
had saved you from drowning
when you had been a little boy;
he pulled you up from the dark
depths of the lake by your hair.

As a youth of twenty, those
big men in their little car -
who you came to think of
somehow supernatural
as nothing was heard of them, afterwards -
came by your crashed car
in the wilderness during night,
having taken, they said,
a wrong turn; they saved
you, except your crushed leg.

My mother, you said,
also saved your life,
ended the wild life
of a working-class bachelor,
hard work five days a week,
hard fun for two days.
You told of the friends
who were dead or in prison,
and believed that was
to be your fate, but for her.

And I, I sent you to your death.
Three chances I had
to save you in those hours,
and each time the chance came
I didn't take it -
and so you died,
thrice saved,
thrice unsaved and doomed
by me.

2
If there would be life
after death,
how could I face you
and those who saved you,
and loved you?
Let there be life
after death
for you
and them,
and for me
nothing but the cold,
frozen earth
of your grave tonight.

29.01.2021

tiistai 26. tammikuuta 2021

THE DAYS GROW LONGER

The days grow longer, more
hours of pale light showing
the gray clouds and the deep snows
holding the black trees in-between,
trunks rising from the white landscape
against, reaching for, the overcast gray.

There is a message here,
in these faded moments before
the yet long night falls,
pouring in the dark between
the void, and the cold years
separating us, like stars.

26.01.2021

FRANZ SCHUBERT(1797-1831)

Sex kills little mushrooms,
who should follow
their own claim how they
are here, on this fertile earth,
only to compose music.

Little mushrooms shouldn't take
their tubby little forms to lay
upon those who need to pay
with their bodies to live, for all
the things little mushrooms take granted.

Little mushrooms want more
than the fruitful earth allows;
you are here to compose music,
and music you compose, and nothing
more, little mushroom, or else...

Sex kills little mushrooms,
sex ends the one purpose
the little mushrooms have,
to compose music solely,
as they die screaming madly.

26.01.2021

sunnuntai 24. tammikuuta 2021

DREAMERS OF THE DIVINE

Have you noticed, dear reader,
how most religious verse on Earth
is not written by the troubled multitude,
desperate in their suffering,
dreaming of Paradise beyond
the mortal coil, but
people living in Heaven on Earth,
rich in all the good things of Life,
fame and wealth and peace of mind,
imagining how they shall
enjoy, beyond death,
still all the good things in Life?
Poetry of the divine
is the realm of those already blessed
while bound in the flesh.

24.01.2021

MY HAND WON'T BLEED WHEN I CRUSH THE GLASS IN MY FIST

How odd that those like him,
these fragile people made of glass,
are so aggressive,
seeking every chance
to launch a wild complaint
easily answered with finality,
by others with a few select words
that would crush them.

Select words they themselves,
freely, hand to us,
explaining how to use them,
asking us to strike,
shatter them
like fragile glass.

It makes no difference
to me what he sends,
what affront of mine
he has made up this time;
these are mere words
and mere words
I'm ready to give him
as crumbs to satisfy;
when I could crush
him with the words he seems to seek,
the that words he seems to yearn for,
playing this pathetic game
with me again and again.

Doesn't he, the little man
ready to be broken,
understand that his petty complaints
don't matter anything at all to me?
That my hand doesn't bleed
when I crush glass in my fist?
That I can crush or absently feed
him, like I would feed a bird on my yard,
crumbs, now and then,
to placate his little ego,
until one day the distance has grown
enough for him to finally
go and immolate himself,
without hurting
those I care for?

Perhaps he does understand
that he has hostages,
perhaps he wants to be
shattered in my fist,
so that the shards
would hurt them,
if not me?

Perhaps he does understand,
that much; let's give
him that much cunning -
yet he doesn't know
this charade costs me nothing,
that in the end I will be there,
saying polite things
over his shattered being,
one more set of crumbs thrown
because I can be magnanimous
with words and beings
I don't care for.

24.01.2021

tiistai 19. tammikuuta 2021

EQUALITY

Don't worry about how
your story in this life seems to go,
wretched as it may be,
we all know the ending,
it's the same always,
you will get there.

No matter where your path
takes you, no matter how
stumbling through life
all your hopes and dreams
seem to fail, in the end
you will get there.

Nothing in your life did you achieve,
if we don't count the negatives
(but there are plenty of those),
but we all know the ending
is the same for everyone,
death and nothingness.

Others in their fierce struggle
made a name for themselves
written in water and sand and wind,
yet your ending is the same,
we all get but
death and nothingness.

19.01.2021

maanantai 18. tammikuuta 2021

THE CO(S)MIC RELIEF

What are we for, we human
beings, in this universe?

We think the world a stage
to take our fleeting appearance,

and those moments
much have some deeper

meaning beyond the last
breath taken; that

our words shall echo
through the infinite,

that the cosmic audience
will remember;

but are we not there
as a little comic relief?

Something to lighten
the cosmic opera,

between the blazing unions
of neutron stars & black holes,

the titanic collisions of galaxies
begetting a billion starbirths

as they do their mating dance,
while we little lifeforms

take the stage, and exit
almost as we enter.

18.01.2021

DAYLIGHT

Even the clear
yet muted light 
outside the windows,
the landscape itself in white,
hurts the eyes
accustomed to the darkness
of the night's
protective womb.

01.08.2016-18.01.2021

sunnuntai 17. tammikuuta 2021

ONLY THE GOOD DIE YOUNG

Under the withered grass
of the long-gone summer,
better people lie,
and we walk on
the withered grass
in this spring of death,
when again
better people die.

02.05.2020-17.01.2021

JANUARY PASTEL

Deep cold mid-day,
the sky the palest blue
above the snows, merging
in the cloudless horizon.

17.01.2021

FREED FROM THE BOUNDS OF TIME

Art is more real
than the life that creates it,
the dead hand of the sculptor
and the composer,
carving in music and stone
what mere moments
erased from the world;
the model for the painting's
tempting, flush figure -
dust and bones;
what made the poet dream
and write, less
than the headstone with her name;
art has the shimmering
blood of truth, purified
beyond the misery of existence
that marks each mortal,
doomed like no work
that escapes from the
human mind, ever is.

17.01.2021

THE MASTER AND THE PUPIL

Why is it
that every work by Schiele
is imprinted with the
owner's seal by Death,
and that every painting of Klimt
is imprinted with Life, if
only melancholy
in its approaching ending,
yet surviving?
In the master we have Life,
Life before the touch of Death
has poisoned the blood,
in the great follower
we have its end,
death overcoming the watching eyes
burning with decay.
Would twice the years have liberated
art from the erasure
of its mortal creator?

17.01.2021

lauantai 16. tammikuuta 2021

PRETENTIOUS TO THE END

At the deep blue winter
moment when the day
in cold chill ends &
night in deep gloom begins,
I listen to Bach,
pretentious to the end,
grab Montaigne 
and try to be
the person I once was;
but, alas, that
naive youth too
I betrayed & lost.

16.01.2021

REGRET

When I see life as it truly has been,
all illusions and excuses discarded,
the path I should have taken
across these long, lost years -
it's in the clear, brisk light
of a cold winter afternoon darkening,
too late for anything but grief
in the glooming.

16.01.2021

ALL MY FAULT

What is left of my life?
Dreams, hopes -
all just books
in cardboard boxes,
a degree whose papers
I have lost - and
all the suffering
I caused to others;
the pain in the voices
of the still living,
the snow on the
graves of the dead.

16.01.2021

TOO LATE

The living
were never
enough for me,
compared
to the dead.

So,
the living,
too, died.

&

How I
miss them,
now.

16.01.2021

AT THE LAST HOUR BEFORE NIGHTFALL

The tops of tall pines
bathing in red light
of the January afternoon,
the Sun descended
beyond the darkening
treeline; here, at this
brief, clear moment
near the end,
I still feel a bright,
chill joy expanding
before night's coming.

16.01.2021

WHEN TIME FOLDS

Under this January
afternoon's clear sky,
the snowscape in deeper blue,
treetops still burning
in descending
pale Sun, I feel like living
in years long passed,
where your feet
still left
prints in the now
untouched snow.

16.01.2021

PROXIMA CENTAURI B

 Long, chill years
took me through the abyss
from the dying Earth
to this alien world,
where in eternal twilight
sparse life clings
to near barren strip of land,
between the darkside ice
and the scorched deserts
of the nightside;
this is the planet of last promise
where all begins anew.

Listening to the sounds
of Earth in its death agonies,
coming through the void
and years, I remember
how I spread my wings,
 golden sunlight
bathing them
in Earth's orbit,
clutching in my bosom
the entirety of humankind,
frozen DNA and data alike,
all the millions of years
that made Humanity,
encoded.

I remember,
I who shall birth
humanity anew
from my crèches
to this desolate world,
to bleak existence,
the wreckers of the planet
of plenty resurrected.
I, John von Neumann's AI.

16.01.2021

tiistai 12. tammikuuta 2021

DUBLIN II

The mentally ill lose their individuality,
become robots going through programming;
that is why they become so angry
when you compare their situation
to that of others suffering the same -
they know that they are no longer individuals,
unique persons, just robots
going through their programming
whose goal is death,
just one more robot in the great
identical mass marching to oblivion.

12.01.2021

perjantai 8. tammikuuta 2021

THE MEANING OF LIFE

It's in the end all pointless, of course,
this thing we call 'life'
& don't understand;
this stream across time and space
which briefly carries us,
while we ask
these questions 
if time exists,
if life has a meaning,
and is there
existence beyond death?

It's all in the end pointless, of course,
after it has ended, this life -
like the stars and galaxies
carried in the streams
of the great cosmic webbing -
has all its meaning
in existence itself,
whether a wondering mind
in a human brain,
or a spinning spiral wheel of dust
& gas, brilliant in starburst.

08.01.2021

torstai 7. tammikuuta 2021

AT TEN IN THE MORNING ON AN EARLY JANUARY DAY

 At ten in the morning,
three colours
make up the landscape.

The clouds and the snow
are blue;
the evergreens black
under their burden
of white.

At ten in the morning,
three colours
make up the landscape.

07.01.2021

2020

 "That", the Devil said,
"was a good year;
a very good year."

"But this, this could
be even better..."

07.01.2021

maanantai 4. tammikuuta 2021

THE JUDGMENT OF PARIS

Paris the shepherd
should have just
eaten that
fucking apple.

But, alas..
So many had to die
for an apple &
his 15 minutes of fame.

Thus are the games
the gods' play:
Buckets of blood
thrown in time's flow.

04.01.2021

THE TOMB OF ACHILLES

What good is a great warrior
without a wretched end,
in some blood-soaked field
that forever will be ruined?

In the Aegean a mound,
on which they butchered a princess,
hides an arrow-tip in a heel,
and a shade half-remembering
how to hold a sword,
and with a vague
yearning for gore.

04.01.2021

sunnuntai 3. tammikuuta 2021

JANUARY

January,
roads devoid
of human beings,
landscape
swept clean
in white.

04.01.2014-03.01.2021

AFTER THE FEEDING

Taste of iron
in your mouth,
smear of red
on your lips.

A throat
ripped open:
A crude
second mouth.

You,
a vampire.

05.02.2018-04.01.2021

perjantai 1. tammikuuta 2021

PRISONERS IN TIME

 Time has put another marker
to separate us, closed
another year, placed
it in its unbroken wall
separating us; am I
the prisoner, as I drift
in the ceaseless flow of time,
or are you the ones,
imprisoned in death's
frozen moments,
which endlessly
reflect you?

01.01.2021