The Spanish Boy: A Life of Albert Camus
There was a little fatherless Spanish boy
in Algeria under the French rule
whose French father had died for France
and in French soil decomposed,
son raised by illiterate Spaniards
in colonial poverty.
There was nothing more he wanted
than stop being an outsider, to be
a Frenchman among the French in France.
To become was to deny, to exclude,
to embrace the Blackfoots as his people,
to make Algeria into France, into Europe.
Those who did not fit, those could not
fit in an European France in Algeria
he muted, marginalized,
to push himself among the French
to become French in France
the price was to silence, to deny -
with word to conquer the land again,
with sentences to make it anew,
with paragraphs to make the native
the alien in their land, in his land;
the land he pushed away without noticing
in his new identity he embraced
to the end; like his father in his coloured
colonial uniform before him,
he in the uniform of a thinker for France
he too, died in Europe,
away from the land that bursted off the mould
and pushed away the Blackfoots
who knew no compromise,
for they, like the Italian boy,
could only accept being Frenchmen in France.
And there he decomposed,
there his grave lies,
a Frenchman in France in his French grave.
09.05.2015